PinkForever’s blog

These are some things I want to do in the near future:
-go back to Bible college
-clean my room bit by bit (mostly throwing out stuff I don't need)
-take lessons of some sort (hopefully, riding lessons)

     I just set up my computer tonight after a long time of not having it in use.  And now I'm set.  I have my bed and my computer and that's all I really need in my room.  It's funny how it's so comforting to have a computer set up and ready for you (or maybe it's just the comfort of the cheeseburger I had tonight).  It's like an immediate attraction in a room...something I gravitate towards I guess.  It's like having a friend.  They say books are good friends, which is true, but how do they compare to computers?  How is a computer a friend?  Is it just an entertainment system or a friend...or do we expect our friends to be entertainment systems for us?

     I've been thinking recently about how I tend to mostly appreciate things in retrospect.  It's like someone who won't drink anything but wine.  I drink the wine of experiences...experiences that have been aged.  I find it hard to appreciate the moment.  I feel like I need to have that nostalgic feeling all the time, even in the moment I'm doing something, in order to appreciate that moment.  Maybe I need to stop needing a feeling to go along with every experience or moment or occurrence in order to appreciate it.  Or maybe I need to find out how to feel appreciation for the moment.  I think it's a mark of growing up to be able to do that (as opposed to living in the past or always looking to the future, I guess).    

     I was thinking about how I create.  I think it has to do with me seeing instant connections between things.  It might actually has to do with my anal need to organize things, or some such annoying trait.  In another blog or writing of mine, I talked about how creativity might be a natural part of a person, but just one that might not have been explored yet.  I guess that means it could be linked to a personality trait.  Who would have thought that creativity could be linked to an annoying personality trait? 

I was just thinking...I think that television is a contributing force to my impatience.  In real life, you have to live your life bit by bit, finish a project hour by hour over time.  In television, the episode is wrapped up in an hour or half an hour with boring parts, parts that don't contribute to the show, kept out of the episode.  That's why accomplishing something in real life seems to go by agonizingly slowly...it's not like a television episode. 

Oh, Chinese egg rolls

If I only had you now

You would feel my teeth!

Usually when I watch something on t.v. it's a form of escapism.  It's me retreating from boredom and this life.  There's this show that I'm watching lately though that's not so much like that.  When I finish watching it, I feel like doing something, not like I've just wasted my time on something of no use to my real life.  It's Joan of Arcadia.  A basic feature of this show is that God shows up in human form every now and then to tell Joan to do something in her life that ends up with positive results for somebody or other. 

     I just finished watching the fourth episode of the first season (called "The Boat") and in it, Joan was told by God to make a boat, for which she has no idea why.  The boat ends up being something that her recently disputing dad and his oldest son can work on together.  I don't know.  This show just makes me want to do something instead of just sit around.  Has anyone else seen this show? 

My brother's moving out this summer.  And my parents are starting to talk about moving into a house.  They say it won't be for a while, but still.  Then I just helped my friend Robin move some things into her newly acquired house which is to be her residence after she gets married in August.  I went to like 2 weddings last summer.  Everyone is moving on in life!

     I view this with the bittersweet feeling of someone who loves the way "things used to be" most of the time.  I don't like change, and, as it doesn't appear as if I'm moving along with that change, it discomforts me.  Reality bites sometimes.  I'm going to have to do something to make sure I don't stay behind too much.  I don't mean so much keeping up with the Joneses as just keeping up with life...making sure I don't stagnate somewhere just because I'm not at the same stage as my friends are. 

There's something I don't get about blogging and I'm not sure what it is.  I think it's mainly just the fact that my brother blogs and wants me to.  So I guess I'm kinda doing it for him and not for my own reasons.  And what's all this about doing things because you want to do them?  I don't do that much.  If I should start, why should blogging be one of the things I do?

I thought that this Vox background was so great...I mean, look at it.  There's pink and there's bacon and eggs: What more could you want?  (Oh yeah, dancing bacon...:)  

(If you want to see the dancing bacon, just click "View original post" above :)